Ashley Jordan, Guest Blogger
Do you remember your first experience at an open mic? Was playing in front of a group of fellow musicians something that you eagerly anticipated…or something that you totally dreaded but somehow forced yourself to try? For me, being on stage is comfortable, and playing in front of others is one of the most rewarding things I’ve ever found. I look forward to playing out new songs, to getting a reaction from the audience. All in all, it’s an exhilarating experience for me. But someone close to me (who wants to remain anonymous) told me that although music is so important to her as a pianist and songwriter, performing in front of people is a nightmare…literally. She often has dreams about performing in which the piano legs fall off just as she begins to play, about forgetting how to put her fingers on the keyboard, and worst of all, about suddenly realizing at the moment she is about to begin playing that she is totally and completely naked on stage. For this person, when she plays alone in a room, she is a concert pianist and her fingering is flawless. Take the same piece of music and ask her to perform in front of a crowd, and she claims she will fall apart, hands shaking, body sweating, and mind going completely blank.
I had asked several musician friends in the past to come out to an open mic with me, but no one seemed especially interested. One friend from my high school, Jackie Lee, has been coming to my performances regularly (both at open mics and at other venues) and was so supportive of my music that she was given the title of “superfan”. She would always cheer loudly for me from the audience (whether the audience consisted of 3 people or 300 people) and she started helping out, by traveling with me and my parents/road-crew, helping to set up my equipment, and selling CDs on the sideline. She is really amazing. I found out that Jackie was learning to play the guitar and really wanted to get more involved in performing. When I casually mentioned her that she should play at an open mic sometime with me, she didn’t hesitate for a moment to respond. “No way!” she said.
I backed off for a while, but Jackie started to meet some of the wonderful and supportive hosts at open mics – namely Neal Braverman and Ellen Schmidt. They too started asking Jackie when she was going to get up on stage and play some music. Jackie would smile politely but never gave a definitive answer. Finally, after my mom told Jackie that our family would be there in the audience to cheer for her and support her, Jackie gave in. I rode in the car with Jackie on that Tuesday night in November when she was going to perform at the Savoury Lane open mic. Jackie seemed more excited to talk about the fact that John Gerard and I were sharing a split feature that night then about anything pertaining to her performance. She was clearly getting nervous, and when I asked her about it she didn’t have much to say. I was glad that she had her guitar in her hand when I picked her up, because it showed me that she was at least intending to play a song that night.
Well…Jackie did it! And when she was done, the room applauded and people gave her high fives as she made her way back to her seat. She had strummed out a song on her guitar, her face was intense and concentrating, and she never once looked out at the audience. But when she was done she looked up and gave a really nice smile and looked relieved and happy.
I asked her later to describe to me how she felt when she was first being introduced by Ellen Schmidt. Jackie said, “I was anxious a bit. I have never been the performing type, so it was nerve wracking when I heard my name spoken to twenty-plus people that I didn’t really know. Seeing the microphones and video camera, switchboard, guitarists, pianists, singers, etc. – all in one room – who I knew were more talented than I, was a bit scary as well.” When I asked Jackie to describe how she felt as she was actually performing her song, she said, “Honestly, I felt like I had to get it over with as soon as possible. I messed up right off the bat so that just downed me and I kept thinking about it throughout my playing. Not to mention, my guitar was out of tune. So it sounded off to me the whole song and I didn’t know whether or not to stop and tune it or just keep playing. For the most part I was fairly confident in what I was playing, just not the sound. That threw me off a bit and made me more negative towards my performance at first rather than positive.”
Jackie expressed that the best thing about performing at the open mic for the first time was “having the Jordan family right there behind me as my support. It felt good to have somebody encourage me and my music, rather than hate on it.” Jackie didn’t feel there were any real “negatives” about performing now that she’s thinking back on it: “It is a place to try out new things and know you are welcomed no matter what.” Jackie said that she would definitely do it again, and that “yes, absolutely” she would recommend doing an open mic to other young people. She ended by saying: “I am fine playing for my friends and it’s a great place to start, but open mics give you a whole new experience and create a bigger outlet to making your music bigger and more successful, if you wanted…”
So I guess that whether you have plans for a music career, or just want the opportunity to perform your music with other people who share your passion for song or spoken word, the open mic is an accepting and rewarding experience for those who are brave and willing. I think that on the night that Jackie performed, we heard original tunes and covers, folk, country, pop and classical music. There was yodeling, piano, harmonica and guitar. We heard stories behind the songs, great jokes and a powerful spoken word piece set to music. What more could you want from an evening out?
All I know for sure is that we need to get more teenagers involved in the whole open mic experience! Way to go, Jackie!!!!